Matchmaker, Matchmaker...

As my "dark day" approaches, I am reminiscent of the year that has passed. It is interesting to remember where I was, what I was feeling and what I wanted almost exactly one year ago.

Many things have changed, most obviously my zip code, but most significantly I am more willing to be vulnerable which ironically makes me feel more confident. However, many things remain the same. I love my Cougs and Niners, I love concerts, being with my friends and watching movies or reading a good book. I am sick of dating, not hopeless just tired of asking and answering the same first date questions over and over again. I still want to love someone completely and unselfishly.

Its funny, it isn't a matter of me feeling old, in fact, I am the baby of my friends down here. I am just done talking about the number of people in my family, what I like to do and where I went to school! Am I the only one that feels this way?

In talking with a few friends here, I have come to a conclusion--I would agree to an arranged marriage. It can't be that bad, can it? I have done the dating thing, I have felt completely myself and loved someone completely as I could and it still doesn't work out. I love those who don't love me and can't seem to love those that could love me. I have tried my best up to this point, but I think I might be cursed, so what have I got to lose?

I turn it over to you, my blog audience! Not just for myself, but for a few of my friends as well. I don't think our standards are too high, I want someone to love that is willing to put up with me, someone who loves the Lord and wants a family. Is that so difficult?

If you need visual reference, see below, we are all attractive, fun and successful chicas! Any suggestions? Send them my way, because somehow this feels less pathetic than online dating (it works for some, I know, totally not dissing it just can't do it!)